The P things
01 May 2012 Leave a Comment
Here’s gonna be a random post out of nowhere after such a very long time, so it kinda feels awkward but I got my blogging feel rollin’ so I’m going to continue anyway 
So, recently, I’ve been transferred to JC East to join the grads group there w a bunch of us central girls grads! The days have been rather eventful from the first day of meeting them till now! Seems like there are always things to do/ no dull moments, so far. HAHA.
Well, okay, so also recently.. (about few months back) I FINALLY GOT MY CAMERA BAILED OUT AWAY FROM MY DAD!
(cuz A’s are over so he has no excuse to not let me have it) When I first got it back and touched it again, I felt like I’ve completely lost touch with it lol. Didnt know how to do anything w it.
But yeah, then I’ve been using it more and more and have been gaining back the photographer in me ^^v Events like Christmas, CNY, birthday parties, outings w friends etc etc.. I’ve been bringing it almost everywhere I go.
One thing I’ve discovered now – I still love photography~~ Haha I thought it was just a random hobby, for fun etc etc, but it’s cool how when I look at awesome photos now (from everywhere- photographers’ blogs, photo fanatics’ sites, facebook) I still feel the.. adrenaline going HAHA dont rlly know how to describe what goes on but.. something like that. And it’s really such an enjoyment when I look through photos of past events, people in it, times spent having fun and you just remember after looking at that photo, that specific moment in time when you took the photo. What the person was saying, his movements at that point in time.. It all comes back vividly. Sumpah.
And I think there’s really power in photography. Not just in getting the best looking photo of the best scenery, best composure, colours and all, but photos with people in action, expressions that are au naturale~
Memories are something that slowly fade as time passes and we remember figments of what we remember. Slowly we forget and those precious moments eventually disappear despite how happy we were, and the extent of our emotions at that time.
Coz the right photographs have the power to influence your memory, to change, to let you perceive and imagine and bring out the better in people. Even if it was a normal day of hanging out with friends, photos that show laughter and joy and fun expression when viewed at the end of the day would portray the day to be even more exciting than it actually was. And many years later, I dont think anyone would be able to remember the little more insignificant days of just chillin’ and talking.. But these photos when taken out, allow you to remember the friendship you had with these people and just brings you back.
I do dream of being a professional photographer, (being paid to do what i love), taking photos for people at weddings, events and giving them the memories in a tangible way. Allowing them to see what they cannot see in person. Showing them everything from another paradigm and possibly just magically enhancing relationships with one another subtly.
Hahah I mean, i just start off with facebook and uploading photos from the day and all~ Normal stuff, but I must must must edit each and every photo before posting, whether cropping, adjusting lighting and all. Ideally, each photo should tell a story and has a meaning. But I mean, I do wanna use this passion(?) for more impactful things like showing people things that words cant fully express, expressing yourself through image.
Haha really makes me happy to see people who enjoy the photos, laughing at themselves or at others, remembering what was happening and really just appreciate the photos. Hee and when the “thanks for the photos” come, you know you have made an impact on them in one way or another (no matter how small).
But one thing, I really need to kickstart this passion again.. ironically. Cos i know it’s there but it’s stalled or smth. Hahah guess I’ve been too used to my lousy photos that I dont try to improve on them. Lousy in the sense that I dont cautiously find good angles, try something creative etc. Just merely take a shot. 
Was looking at this guy’s http://www.flickr.com/photos/jwlphotography/ flickr page. And im like, Z.O.M.G its sooo awesome!! Though a bit extreme but some shots I absolutely love~ and also looking at James’ photo albums some of them heh oops (cos ive heard he’s good so i went to see). Yeah got myself reinspired. And Im wanting to remember this moment by writing it out. Forming proper sentences with my thoughts..
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May 2nd:
This post was saved as draft on feb 11 coz I didnt feel like posting it haha. Anyway, I shall continue.
Was talking to adria the other day, um Monday, about passion. Different people having their different passions and being courageous enough to pursue it, i.e. friends dropping out of hci to pursue acting, youtube stars getting famous just by simply doing what they enjoy, people being good at what they like and do and living happily. We talked about how we were so sick of our lives now (kinda), of working in places just for the money, as robots almost. Realizing how excited we got when we asked “What do you want to do next time? Or what are you interests?”, it shows something more about passion, something about it that’s alive and sparking something in each individual.
Anyway, about photography. Yeah, re-reading the top part of this post made me pumped up again. Haha but I just can’t find an avenue to start out!!! But okay, Shannen (she told me to mention her) and I are planning on starting on this fashion photography shoot thingy soon!! So like prolly yay from there we’ll go.
Haha, alrighty, looking forward to the photos to come!!~ ^^
(HAHA such an uncommitted end to the post HAHA, sorry lost touch)
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Post A’s Day One!
30 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
So, A’s are over.
Had a ball the night before @ Festive Hotel (w much thanks to Janeen for booking it!)
So far, the freedom feels sweeeeet~ ^^
Thought’s are in webs and fragments all over, need some time to construct them into a single coherent post.
For now, Thank You God
Intervene
13 Apr 2011 Leave a Comment
How about now, it’s a new chapter unfolding?
How about now, no one knows where they’re going?
How about now, we’re displacing Him from his throne,
belittling Him with us presumably knowing?
Heart Soul Mind Strength.
In which are we faltering?
Why do we choose to shortchange
what He has so generously let have?
———————————————–
Right about now, we’re about to get going.
It’s a brand new story, a fresh beginning.
I don’t know how but You are all-knowing.
People say no, but I like this feeling.
I hope You are involved, I want the best
for myself. You are more and I am less,
but I try not to compromise.
In the end, who would know?
“Only you can search my soul.”
So let This happen,
Hope it doesn’t matter
Though I think I’ve slackened.
I don’t know, caught in between.
Flutter and mutter – pretty easy to see
that my heart’s made up,
but where’s my mind to be?
———————————————-
Your adventure, my child, is just beginning.
Don’t be too quick to think you’re living.
For life is not a wild goose chase,
It is in fact, a test of faith.
Run as you may,
Crawl as you please.
“Even youths stumble and fall,
grow tired and faint,
But those who hope in the Lord,
will renew their strength.”
For I know my plans for you.
Rugged? I make all things new.
Look at my face,
“You won’t be a disgrace.”
“I Love You,” my dear,
“Remember.”
It’s time for WAR
27 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
My blogs bg is the same colour as my PW slides oh gosh..
Anyway, my hair is in this bun now that I tried while watching a vid hehe and i luv it I dont feel like taking it out to go bathe cos i may never be able to do it again :<
Okay, anyway on a more serious note,
Recently God has been good and alive & kicking contrary to what I’ve been thinking. :s
Haha, He is moving in my family really and it’s like, I cant help but feel so thankful (once again) for how he really carries out what He says He will.
I am ashamed yet again, to renew my faith each time (cos it means that I have lost it before or have let it deplete before and thus needing to renew it again) with Him but at the same time, I am just mightily happy for how He lets us know that He’s still working in this and really, it’s His fight not ours.
Reminds me of this song haha.
Counting on God.
“I’m in a fight not physical.
I’m in a war but not with this world.
You are the light that’s beautiful, and I want more, I want all that’s yours.
Joy unspeakable that wont go away and just enough strength to live for today,
so I’ll never have to worry what tomorrow will bring
coz my faith is on solid rock and I’m counting on God.”
Woots! Yeah, just a brief update.
God’s still good and alive and kicking! Hard to see, hard to hear but He’s there alright!
Remember that! <3
Girls Only! x
27 Oct 2010 4 Comments
Hi galpalz~~ Just spent my day watching youtube about hairstyling makeup and all those bimbz stuff hahaha and this post is.. to share with you what i intend (us) to do 
okay just read on babez
It’s damn cool! like like, there are tutorials on how to curl your hair using a hair straightener, how to create those mega messy but ultimately sexy boomz hair hahaha & like also make up for HALLOWEEN, make up to make your face look slimmer (or nicer in any way) it’s like woah. You just need to TRY IT. hahaha. want to see want to see?
This person is rather cool.
http://www.youtube.com/user/xteeener#p/u/35/ck79NZJHWb8
She teaches how to contour your face to look sharp, do up your hair, mm.. prolly some fashion stuff too? But she’s the more, classic one.
Then there’s this other girl who’s quite funny and cool. I like her style hahaha. Her attitude and all ^^
This is like some cool ponytail thing which we can all do to school if we wish actually so yeah! It’s pretty awesome how much we can do with our long black boring hair!
And there are like many many more types of things we could try out. Like for the Tiffany girl, she has alot of quirky self-discovered hair styles that is really not that bad! I would want to try it one day and really wear that out and boomz the world. LOL k not possible but..
i dont know if you share the same passion as I do in this, but yknow what! Apart from our girls day out to Sentosa we should have another gals day in at someone’s home chillin’ and doing all those lil things girls would do :* beautifying ourselves just for the fun of it!!! some stuff are rlly coool and look pretty easy hehe.
Not the best but substantial anyway. HAHA okok?! Then after that maybe we can go plop ourselves at botanic gardens or something and spam The Button till the sky falls down on us we’ll keep enjoyin’ :>
Wooots & we can like like like, learn how to do cool sht hair like, the hxc corn rows or or like, mega high hair!! Hahah & then maybe try out different kinda make ups that make us look hot like hollywood stars and then proceed to give ourselves the high class treatment of self-mani/pedi coupled with awesome help from each other. and then like, wait till late late in the night and probably fall asleep hoping and dreaming that we will stay looking so glamorous forever~
OR maybe, if ya dont want to stay and wait, we can ‘strut down orchard road’ (like rizlow just 10x better maybe) and bask in the glory of pretty little selves hahahah. And maybe go shoppin’ ~!
I know this sounds like a rich tai tai’s life BUT NO. – there’s no mahjong, no high tea, no gossips over the coffee table, no large lumpy pearls around your neck- only a cool buncha friends that learns to love themselves (and each other) for who they are & what they have and most definitely, shining individually, altogether heehee
hahaha aiya, i dont know man. i just watch until super inspired that’s why like that LOL. but cmonnnn, who doesnt want to like prettify ^^ themselves if they could hahaha esp girls right.
And like Stupid Singapore is making us work hxc day and night day and night we don’t get time for ourselves (or so i feel) ~
I watch those tutorials videos of people overseas in the UK/US or wtv & i’m like, where in the world did they buy that time to doll themselves up so nicely at home without actually going out somewhere after that or like, to take it off after the video.
It’s like how cool, they got so much time & we’re like, in a mad rush for time even if we do need to go out we dress like aunties -.- ‘swhy ah ger, if nao you dont look mei mei, next time where got boy boy want you? next time you aunty lao kok kok you mei mei also nobody see alady.
HAHA omg i rock. kidding about the boy boy want you part that’s just.. idk what aunties will say (you hear that every CNY right? omg)
YEAH. ALRIGHT.
how how how yall want not?? Hahaha im like all for it, just afraid that while enjoying, at the back of my mind, i’ll be thinking of my exam, advancement test, Alevels maybe, and like, what’s gonna happen to my life…..
hatechu singapore, moe.
OKAY YEAH.
AND AH, our Sentosa babes day out how?!
HAHAHA DO I SOUND DEPRIVED? I FEEL LIKE I DO. Prolly side effects of staying at home the whole day today cuz i woke up at 4pm -.- hxc right me? peace xoxo
SIGH. ok i am not deprived….
i am just very enthralled over the thoughts of all these fun shit i have never really done before because… i am deprived.. x.x
Yup i certainly am sounding crazy already. Like antoinette like she’s an animal a beast in Jane Eyre
Just that im a friendly beast ^u^ yay
Yknow what, i think im just rambling on cuz im subconsciously waiting for a reply to my magnificent idea but i cant and wont get one now coz obviously i havent posted it… and thus keep rambling.
k tiao me wachu phink k :’)
Not just another Saturday
18 Sep 2010 3 Comments
Happy 17th Julez!!
Haha just got back (2h ago) from Julian’s house. Neenee Ong’s mum sent 3 of us back home :0 So nice
& dayyyum it’s 4am now my body clock GONE. Tmr got tuition ley omgz.
But anyway, really enjoyed the celebration today. Haha. Though there was really no programs prepared and it was just dinner + chill, I really enjoyed the company.
Haha we had some awesome-quality food cooked by his parents – they are brilliant cooks I tell you. Own style and all.
Slacked around and all, picked up the guitar and started singing songs tgt. Haha the guys couldnt tank us anymore and soon they were like, “Hey guys, I think we should go downstairs!”
Janeen: “Haha what a nice way to put it.”
*group of us disperses*
Janeen: “Ok im bringing this down.” (Guitar)
***
Ran around, relived our childhood.
Played freeze & melt, climbed around the monkey bars, hung upside down from them, swung on swings till they creaked and shook with each swing, played on the see-saw, camwhored and serenaded with just TWO lines!
“When I see your face, there’s not a thing that I would change. Cos you’re amazing just the way you are. And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while, cos girl you’re amazing just the way you are.”
Yay yay it was gr8888 hahah Janeen you so proz luv u <3 hahah she managed to find out the harmony to that part!
I bet she's been practising at home.
Okay but anyway, the main point of this post..
It was a gr8 night with a gr8 bunch of friends ..
Haha then thinking back to my bday celebration (which i sincerely thought was quite fail),
I think I should have prolly done separate days celebrating separate days with different groups of people i love <3
And anyway.. I think I really find it sooo hard to love.. Yknow?
Like, to be really concerned about people and their lives. Though I do try, but I think it's not enough..
In the sense that it seems extremely touch-n-go..
I really want to be a good friend to those around me.
I don't want to judge people for who they are/arent.
God open my <3
I need to start replying messages faster + more promptly! :s
Heh, I've definitely got something out of this bday celebration.
It's all about genuineness and love for friends that builds friendships
I'm really glad to have such great friends around me, really.
And I should really stop being so superficial and surface in the way i choose friends…
Really Cleo. Damn.
Really should catch up with some old buds, just talk and chill man~
ok but i rlly hate awkward moments/meetups damn sian hahaha.
But anyway, I really miss some people now </3 haha.
k i should do smth!
But for now, i think it's about time I catch some sleep. :S
Goodnight world ~
Alright, it's about time I went to sleep.
Mashup
11 Sep 2010 3 Comments
Loved today’s sermon ^^
Not just the content, but the conviction and the whole energy behind it.
I think it’s just what we need. Sad to say, the thoughts that came were the kind that “Brings back memories”…
Meaning that now I ain’t living like I used to be.
Having slackened and all.. Noooo.
But yep it’s true.
I really really agree with how Christianity is supposed to be – not a piece of cake, not just for the fuzzy wuzzy wuv, not for the weak/faint/half hearted, not for the idea of ‘I need an outlet of some sort therefore I thank God’.
Christianity is really, livin’ on the edge, all or nothin’, hot or cold, giving our best for God and for nothing else.
Now here’s the part that we either get it or don’t. God is God and we are not.
We need to get that straight before we start doing anything.
We don’t compromise on His Kingdom because it is simply,His Kingdom.
This is the part that people commonly overlook: The understanding of who God actually is.
And we cross the line to the side on:
But I feel sian today, can I not go for evax?(for eg)
But I am catching a movie with my friends today, can I not go for LG? (When you know that LG happens that same day every week).
Basically just serving because we feel like. Serving because we have the time to. Not because we make the time to.
Serving because God called us to serve, God made us serve.
When in actual fact, we serve because God called us to serve, God CHOSE us to serve, God allowed us to serve, God aided in our serving, God provided in our serving, helped us in our serving.
And we do all these, why?
Because the world needs it. Because we have seen the light and no we dont snuff it out.
Because we want people to experience this joy, this freedom, this LIFE, this exhilaration, this power, this liberty, THIS LOVE.
Knowing that love ain’t a small thing. Something that we humans looonggg for so much! But whatever love we try to grab and embrace, it will never stay. It’s just like water – try embracing water, it leaves you with it’s moist but never stays with you in its wholeness. In the same way, love, coming from the world will merely skim the surface of your heart and leave you wanting more! But you try so hard, multiple relationships, friendships from all over, but they can only reach you that far. What you need is something that covers the extra bit of your heart that no one, and nothing can have the capacity to. The only One who can – God.
Man you got that right He’ll flood your heart 10 times through – and he won’t hesitate doing it again.
Yknow, sometimes I really can’t stand seeing people getting into relationships.
(no not because im jealous hahaha) But because I know what’s the root of it, I know what’s the expected outcome, and I know their feelings at the end of it.. And I really feel sad for them.
Especially those who get into one just because.
Can click? K clip. Nooooo! Doesnt work like that.
And… I am nobody, but I really do try to help them understand the reasons of getting into a relationship. Hoping people have a realisation that Hey, this won’t last coz blablablabla.
But when they dont see it, I dont blame them (though it’s really quite obvious through the way I put it) because the world and the bleedy media has contorted young minds into believing in love at first sight, love giving you a heart-fluttering experience. Oh how could I forget and a kiss being so whimsical and airy-fairy like. Lololol I swear that’s the most misleading thing on TV. Go try doing it to a coconut or smth? Maybe that could be a preliminary round.
Hahahah okay I sound like some old hag w 99 cats.
Dont misunderstand, I do love the feeling of love. It’s amazingggg ~
But really, Love is something that requires a lot of effort and energy. It doesnt happen w electrifying eye contact or a kiss. It requires a lot of selflessness and a lot of sacrifice. (so maybe ultimately we can conclude, if all these is gonna tear you more to bits and being uplifting then you’d rather stay away right? But see, the desires of the human heart.)
It’s sometimes morbid and illogical but we dont care.
See, Love is powerful.
It’s the kinda of assurance you get when all things seem bleak. You know that through all these, you are not left out and forgotten. It’s the warmth you get (not fluttering heart feel ok maybe only sometimes but mainly warmth) when you know that there’s a constant love there you can bank on and turn to It’s a commitment.
Right so where was I? Sorry I sidetracked a bit.. too much.
Oh right. So being a Christian boils back down to giving your life to this purpose (logical right? Your status: christian, so something about you shld change w.r.t that change in status, no?)
Then from there, I really think following principles and not feelings really really really stand very strongly here.
Cuz many a times, we do what feels right, feels good, doesnt feel awkward.
But amidst all these feelings we get, why not just look at the Word to see what’s right or wrong?
You say “Lord I give you my heart, I give you my soul, I live for you alone.” So it means us being ready to set aside our interests for the Lord, setting aside our feelings for God, doing what He wants us to do.
Okay but everything aside.
Me saying all these. Man are they big words.
I have learnt too over the years/months.. That though yes these are primal in our Christian lives, but at the same time, God’s people are as important than these.
Hehe, Ive realised my mistake last time Omg stupid me sigh (but im glad i did what i knew was right heh) and now I’ve learnt to tone down… In a sense, not be so hard on myself and the rest of the world (lol sounds like me against the world). No seriously, I used to be horribly agitated when people don’t know their priorities (simple ones) in life. For eg, going for LG. Basic right?! I mean..
Heh but now I know that I gotta show love above all despite knowing these principles.
In a way, dont judge people by what they do? Just judge yourself.
But then again, I dont know the extent of this as yet.
Still watching, still learning.
One flaw about knowing the principles well is that.. You’ll tend to judge people more easily? Or is it just me :S
Subconsciously even.
I mean yeah, they’re supposed to follow principles.. But if they choose not to, will scolding help? Prolly love will allow more space for growth and repentance and realizations..
Though yeah sometimes disciplining needs to come in, but.. seldom the case I guess? People know the principles just that they choose what they want to do with that knowledge.
Idk yet, still learning where to draw the line haha.
Right! And thus, it is impt for people (esp leaders in da house) to lead by example. Cos ppl like me need that. No amount of teaching will teach me how to relate with people, handle situations, run events.
Thank God for you guys ^^ Pat and Sam \m/ plz keep doing a good job hehe!
Ok I should probably get off now and be more productive. Idk why I posted such a long post too omg. It’s been so long ^^ Oh and omg, my jeans rips are getting larger and larger nooooo..
And and and!!! Let me update you a bit about my dance discoveries.
Recently: Paper dolls are my fav people to follow!!
They are super awesome! A whole bunch of talented people, the Rafael family (omg I couldnt believe this when I saw Jasmine Rafael was like Aj Rafael’s sister and she DANCES and SINGS and they are christians! And then for Paperdolls, the whole group of them, their passion for dance is really fantastic! They are sooo awesome they inspire me. Really shows me how one’s passion can drive him/her so much. Really putting in the effort and heart to it, not just doing it for fame and popularity but really having this deep purpose behind it.
Let me show you some of their videos:
This is their first dance cover as a newly-formed ‘Paper dolls’! (I think?)
Dynamite Dance Cover
Then this is their 2nd. They did like a dance-story-video thing. I forgot what they called it but it’s a very good attempt!! Their dancing is awesome as always.
Teenage Dream Dance Cover
Heehee, I really gotta thank Shannen for introducing them to me hehe. I think it’s divine. Cos all she showed me was the Dynamite video cos the dance was cool. Without even knowing any background of these people.
But after following their videos and watching more of them, I found out all those stuff about them!
Managed to learn the choreo to Dynamite but looks like crap. Hahah YKNOW THEY REALLY INSPIRE ME.
k I’m like tryna learn their styles and copy and hopefully pick up some skills along the way (:
Yay yay yay OH hahahahah today during service Thalia Ramos accepted my fb friend request HAHAHAHA so happy know! HAHAHA Waiting for the other two to. Heh. Okok, pls check them out too yeah? They’re really cool.
Woots.
Love y’all! ^^ Time to goooooooo… ~
Rise up!
03 Aug 2010 1 Comment
Being able to separate feelings from doing what’s right ain’t easy, but once you get it, you’re a step ahead in many things.
Being able to decide to do what’s right, and ignoring what you find is most impt for yourself is even harder, but if you are able to, you have gained a broader perspective.
Being able to take a step back – disregarding yourself AND your feelings – both at once – in order to justly make a decision takes a real mature mind and being able to do so makes you a person growing more to be like God:)
Being able to be God-conscious in all that you do, thinking about what God would do in that circumstance, would put a big smile on God’s face:)
Being a Christian, is the benefit of living life w someone with you every step of the way:) No other human being can replace that support and love, not even the most faithful boy/girlfriend, nor the closest of buddies, nor your family, not even yourself.
Only God can:)
They say, “change is the only constant”, but I think, “God is the only constant”, and that “change is nothing compared to God”.
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” -John 3:16
My buncha thoughts that just came all of a sudden. Too much haha.
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