29 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
YOYOYOYO!
today was grrrrr-eaa-ttttt!
loved today. 
actually, more of the night part. heh.
k, pictures for today first.
hahaha it looks like falee’s feeling left out and they’re both in their own worlds.
hahaha damn natural man art.
TERRORISTSS!!
HAHAH they look damn cute 
hahaha wth art.
Falee’s.
Filza’s.
filza’s bottle? lol.
actually, this picture is quite nice.
mysterious characterr. 
woah so cool eh. hahha.
SICK. hahahahha.
okay so,
today was my aunty’s birthday.
so i had to leave canoeing earlier to go for her dinner thing.
OH YES, about canoeing.
i am so irritated k.
firstly, i had to paddle K1.
coach made meeeee, for just 1h. getting in takes like 5-10mins.
getting out too.
and then if i capsize, emptying the boat takes about 15mins.
argh. and i dont usually take K1!!!!!
and i dont intend to cap that day cos i wasnt wearing fbts aka pants that dry very fast.
soooo yeah.
but i had to anyway, so i just took and paddled in the beginners area. its just a small area in the reservoir away from the lanes la k. hahaha i know it sounds noob.
so then, it sounds like nothing right? “beginners area, wont cap one no currents.”
thought so too.
BUT AH, today, dont know why today, ganengsengsec was training.
and they took up half the beginners area going in ALL DIRECTIONS.
i mean, im not blaming them, beginners are noob so they dont know that they’re supposed to go in circles.
and they cant really control the boat…..
but anyway, i pretty much avoided them.
i didnt go the full round, went halfway. ahahha.
yeah, so like at 430 plus (supposed to leave at 5)
i was paddling paddling towards the half mark of the beginners area.
AND THENNNNN, this dont know from where the coach,
comes paddling in a C-boat beside me on the left. (i was on the right supposed to turn left to go another round)
i was trying hard to balance too!
okay so imagine this,
im on the right-er side of the B.A (beginners area k)
he’s close by on my left.
on my right is the platform where all the gess ppl are PLUS cj – the super power backwash people..
i am balancing as hard as i can, overcoming the currents and choppy waters,
turning to avoid t2 crashing into me at the same time, AND WANTING TO TURN LEFT BEFORE I PADDLED TOOO INTO THE B.A.
(cos i only paddled half then i turned rmb?)
argh yes.
so because he was paddling beside me at the same speed.
DONT KNOW WHAT HE WANT MAN.
i stop for him to go in front SO THAT i can turn, he stop also. okay nvm.
SO i take it that i paddle in front of him to turn la.
so i paddle fast.
THEN HE COME and paddle fast also.
walaoeh irritating.
then i was like more than halfway of the B.A alr la.
and its as good as death (- capsize).
cos all the boats were there, some trying to leave the platform, some coming in,
some losing control of their boat etc.
and then of course, a T2 came in my direction..
from the front of my boat 45degrees on the right side.
(come on picture it!!!)
k? hahah.
YES and he was BESIDE me. parallel..
so i tried to squeeze through the centre before the boats squished me in the middle.
but nooooooo, HE AH, go use his leg to HOLD ON to my boat from the bottom.
cos he’s using a C-boat so yea.
and i was frantically trying to back-paddle and i didnt realise he was holding,
so i was like paddling HAHAHA and whacking his ass. eew
and he didnt tell me till i myself realized..
so…. i was stable while he was ‘holding on’ to my boat.
and let the T2 pass.
then after the T2 passed.
he just took his foot away and pushed me and like “GO!”
then i was like WTHHHHHH.
note: i couldnt balance properly at all k.
AND HIS BOAT WAS LIKE RIGHT BESIDE MINE!!!???
like stuck tgt those kind.
so how was i supposed to ‘GO!’ ?
i couldnt even put my paddle into the water.
then i capped luh obviously.
and i made this super annoyed sound.
TO LET HIM KNOWWWW that i am irritated/angry/frustrated/annoyed.
and he just went like, “ahhhh..”
not the sensual kinda “ahhh” but like, “aw mannn” those kind.
and i rolled my eyes.
not at him luh.
but he should know that it was HIS FAULT.
and that jia sheng ah.
laughing at me in front of me summore.
stupid boy.
hahah. k la. never even seen him laugh before or even talk..
not that i cannot swim or what.
its cos my PANTSSSSS! hard to dry..
and i had no change of clothes.
so i had to go on the bus like.. dripping..
THANKS TO HIM LUH.
walao i still dont like him.
i think he’s got smth wrong..
he talks to people like everyone’s his friends like that.
he talked to my juniors also.
hopefully not a paedophile.
and then i went to empty my boat and stuff..
then went off paddling again.
i met him paddling in my direction while i was setting off.
then he was like, “you look very troubled.”
cos i see him, like i see jinx liddat. hahaha.
then i was concentrating on my balance, so i was like almost frowning and stuff.
and i daoed him. who cares. i had this super coool face k. hahahah. qian bian one i think. gangster see me also want to fight those kind. HAHA yay i rock
then i just paddled as fast as i could,
1) to get away from him
2) to make my balance more balanced.
then i banged into the back of his boat. HAHA but the tip there only la.
then he was like “woah WOAH WOAHHHHH.”
but didnt cap la, coach leh.
so i was like, “sorry.” then just paddle away.
not those kind of sincere sorry,
its like just saying as if its another normal word.
i really wanted him to cap luh.
arghhhhhhh.
k so anyway, i just spoiled my mood. ahhahah.
it was supposed to be a happy post );
wait i must see pictures first.
okay seen.
omg its damn nice
the coolest bday celebrated. not those kind ‘fun fun’ cool luh.
but its like, they invited the cell group members, pastors to come down to celebrate.
we had dinner first luh.
then after that cut cake.
so they played the happy birthday song for her on the guitar and we sang.
then it was like alot of ppl sang, not those kinda dead dead one. hahaha.
it felt different luh. dont know why.
then after that was she blow candles.
ahah then her husband came and blew with her. 
then everyone was like ‘kiss kiss kiss kiss kisss!!’
hahaha so they did. 
it was abit eeew.. but anw. hahaha husband and wife alr.
then i saw nicholas’ face, he was like smiling so happily la. HAHA.
dont know why uh. hahaha.
(anw, he’s their son)
so yeah, then while they were giving out cakes,
we all sang some hymns.
the paper thingy. lyrics.
it was damn cool.
like p&w!!!! yeah (:
i was like sooo jealous..
that their whole family could celebrate like this.
ive thought about how good it would feel if we your whole family was Christian and served God together.
that would be sooooo awesomee!!
everyone was singing and clapping so happily, even though the songs were slow.
and i looked at all of them, i felt the sense of rush again. hahah.
like, i want this to happen to me tooo!!!
they were all quite elderly, like 40s, 50s?
but they had a heart of a child, they’re all like so carefree and relaxed and happy.
they were all clapping and moving to the beat in their own way.
thats how it should be!
serving as if no one else is.
then i looked at my mum..
and she’s just sitting on the sofa not doing anything.
she didnt even eat the cake although she wasnt singing.
i think she didnt feel good if she was the only one eating. hahah.
cos we were all singing and none were eating..
oh man..
felt so good anyway.
such a pity for her.
then after that we said grace or smth then we ate the cake
it wasnt very nice.. uhh. hahaha. but who cares luh.
half the time, all you taste on cakes is the cream.
haha. then while we were eating, she made a speech.
to thank everyone luh.
4 PAGES LONG!!!
wth right. hahaha.
but she almost teared.
it wasnt like those kinda “i wanna thank my mom, dad, brother, sister ……”
ahha but it was like specifically for everyone and stuff.
it was so touching k. ahhaha. i teared too.
even though i wasnt mentioned.. as in, not exactly. haha.
then she said she’s thankful for her son (the sec 3 one.)
about how he’s grown so much, spiritually, and that she’s very happy.
she look him directly and said it.
if i were him i would just tear luh.
actually i was already. ahhaha.
cos i like to put myself in others shoes.. lol. so yeah.
then she thanked our family for helping them in their times of need.
that part she almost cried too. i think she write until too touching alr, so she changed the words.
and she mentioned about how God helped her through her low times too and all the cool things. and she held her husbands hands and thanked him too.
and she looked him in the eye and said it and stuff.
i think she’s soo brave!!!
i wont be able to do that in front of so many people man. ahhaha.
as in, to my dad or mum or whoever.
argh. i really am jealous now. hahah.
i really wantttttt my family to come to know God.
not just because i think these kinda bday celebrations are cool,
but because they really should.
how much they’re missing out man!
and im disappointed in my dad tonight.
shant explain.
which makes me even more determined to get them with me one day.
people really never know what they’re missing out till they experience it, srsly.
i didnt know either. now i look back at sec 1.. i feel so.. wth.
nothing to say. ahhaah.
then after the “ceremony” sort of. hahah.
one of the cell group ppl came over and talked to my mum.
then i was like in my heart uh.
i know what she was aiming at. hahaha.
i thought that it was kinda good (:
i mean, i’ve been trying and trying..
now at least someone stepped in and helped me get the ball rolling.
i felt so thankful
then after she talked to my mum i went to say thanks to her. ahhaha.
unexplainable joy. i was like very very happy even though i wasnt high.
the source of joy is different i guess.
hahah. the ‘high’ kinda joy is temporial and needs alot of effort and energy to make it happen.
but this is totally different.
i felt so happyyyy DDD
never in my life i felt so happy meaningfully. hahah.
i think this is the nicest bday cake picture ive taken so far. lol.
family photo. hahah.
eh julian, dont you think he looks abit like yc?! 
29 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
YOYOYOYO!
today was grrrrr-eaa-ttttt!
loved today.
actually, more of the night part. heh.
k, pictures for today first.
hahaha it looks like falee’s feeling left out and they’re both in their own worlds.
hahaha damn natural man art.
TERRORISTSS!!
HAHAH they look damn cute 
hahaha wth art.
Falee’s.
Filza’s.
filza’s bottle? lol.
actually, this picture is quite nice.
mysterious characterr. 
woah so cool eh. hahha.
SICK. hahahahha.
okay so,
today was my aunty’s birthday.
so i had to leave canoeing earlier to go for her dinner thing.
OH YES, about canoeing.
i am so irritated k.
firstly, i had to paddle K1.
coach made meeeee, for just 1h. getting in takes like 5-10mins.
getting out too.
and then if i capsize, emptying the boat takes about 15mins.
argh. and i dont usually take K1!!!!!
and i dont intend to cap that day cos i wasnt wearing fbts aka pants that dry very fast.
soooo yeah.
but i had to anyway, so i just took and paddled in the beginners area. its just a small area in the reservoir away from the lanes la k. hahaha i know it sounds noob.
so then, it sounds like nothing right? “beginners area, wont cap one no currents.”
thought so too.
BUT AH, today, dont know why today, ganengsengsec was training.
and they took up half the beginners area going in ALL DIRECTIONS.
i mean, im not blaming them, beginners are noob so they dont know that they’re supposed to go in circles.
and they cant really control the boat…..
but anyway, i pretty much avoided them.
i didnt go the full round, went halfway. ahahha.
yeah, so like at 430 plus (supposed to leave at 5)
i was paddling paddling towards the half mark of the beginners area.
AND THENNNNN, this dont know from where the coach,
comes paddling in a C-boat beside me on the left. (i was on the right supposed to turn left to go another round)
i was trying hard to balance too!
okay so imagine this,
im on the right-er side of the B.A (beginners area k)
he’s close by on my left.
on my right is the platform where all the gess ppl are PLUS cj – the super power backwash people..
i am balancing as hard as i can, overcoming the currents and choppy waters,
turning to avoid t2 crashing into me at the same time, AND WANTING TO TURN LEFT BEFORE I PADDLED TOOO INTO THE B.A.
(cos i only paddled half then i turned rmb?)
argh yes.
so because he was paddling beside me at the same speed.
DONT KNOW WHAT HE WANT MAN.
i stop for him to go in front SO THAT i can turn, he stop also. okay nvm.
SO i take it that i paddle in front of him to turn la.
so i paddle fast.
THEN HE COME and paddle fast also.
walaoeh irritating.
then i was like more than halfway of the B.A alr la.
and its as good as death (- capsize).
cos all the boats were there, some trying to leave the platform, some coming in,
some losing control of their boat etc.
and then of course, a T2 came in my direction..
from the front of my boat 45degrees on the right side.
(come on picture it!!!)
k? hahah.
YES and he was BESIDE me. parallel..
so i tried to squeeze through the centre before the boats squished me in the middle.
but nooooooo, HE AH, go use his leg to HOLD ON to my boat from the bottom.
cos he’s using a C-boat so yea.
and i was frantically trying to back-paddle and i didnt realise he was holding,
so i was like paddling HAHAHA and whacking his ass. eew
and he didnt tell me till i myself realized..
so…. i was stable while he was ‘holding on’ to my boat.
and let the T2 pass.
then after the T2 passed.
he just took his foot away and pushed me and like “GO!”
then i was like WTHHHHHH.
note: i couldnt balance properly at all k.
AND HIS BOAT WAS LIKE RIGHT BESIDE MINE!!!???
like stuck tgt those kind.
so how was i supposed to ‘GO!’ ?
i couldnt even put my paddle into the water.
then i capped luh obviously.
and i made this super annoyed sound.
TO LET HIM KNOWWWW that i am irritated/angry/frustrated/annoyed.
and he just went like, “ahhhh..”
not the sensual kinda “ahhh” but like, “aw mannn” those kind.
and i rolled my eyes.
not at him luh.
but he should know that it was HIS FAULT.
and that jia sheng ah.
laughing at me in front of me summore.
stupid boy.
hahah. k la. never even seen him laugh before or even talk..
not that i cannot swim or what.
its cos my PANTSSSSS! hard to dry..
and i had no change of clothes.
so i had to go on the bus like.. dripping..
THANKS TO HIM LUH.
walao i still dont like him.
i think he’s got smth wrong..
he talks to people like everyone’s his friends like that.
he talked to my juniors also.
hopefully not a paedophile.
and then i went to empty my boat and stuff..
then went off paddling again.
i met him paddling in my direction while i was setting off.
then he was like, “you look very troubled.”
cos i see him, like i see jinx liddat. hahaha.
then i was concentrating on my balance, so i was like almost frowning and stuff.
and i daoed him. who cares. i had this super coool face k. hahahah. qian bian one i think. gangster see me also want to fight those kind. HAHA yay i rock
then i just paddled as fast as i could,
1) to get away from him
2) to make my balance more balanced.
then i banged into the back of his boat. HAHA but the tip there only la.
then he was like “woah WOAH WOAHHHHH.”
but didnt cap la, coach leh.
so i was like, “sorry.” then just paddle away.
not those kind of sincere sorry,
its like just saying as if its another normal word.
i really wanted him to cap luh.
arghhhhhhh.
k so anyway, i just spoiled my mood. ahhahah.
it was supposed to be a happy post );
wait i must see pictures first.
okay seen.
omg its damn nice
the coolest bday celebrated. not those kind ‘fun fun’ cool luh.
but its like, they invited the cell group members, pastors to come down to celebrate.
we had dinner first luh.
then after that cut cake.
so they played the happy birthday song for her on the guitar and we sang.
then it was like alot of ppl sang, not those kinda dead dead one. hahaha.
it felt different luh. dont know why.
then after that was she blow candles.
ahah then her husband came and blew with her. 
then everyone was like ‘kiss kiss kiss kiss kisss!!’
hahaha so they did. 
it was abit eeew.. but anw. hahaha husband and wife alr.
then i saw nicholas’ face, he was like smiling so happily la. HAHA.
dont know why uh. hahaha.
(anw, he’s their son)
so yeah, then while they were giving out cakes,
we all sang some hymns.
the paper thingy. lyrics.
it was damn cool.
like p&w!!!! yeah (:
i was like sooo jealous..
that their whole family could celebrate like this.
ive thought about how good it would feel if we your whole family was Christian and served God together.
that would be sooooo awesomee!!
everyone was singing and clapping so happily, even though the songs were slow.
and i looked at all of them, i felt the sense of rush again. hahah.
like, i want this to happen to me tooo!!!
they were all quite elderly, like 40s, 50s?
but they had a heart of a child, they’re all like so carefree and relaxed and happy.
they were all clapping and moving to the beat in their own way.
thats how it should be!
serving as if no one else is.
then i looked at my mum..
and she’s just sitting on the sofa not doing anything.
she didnt even eat the cake although she wasnt singing.
i think she didnt feel good if she was the only one eating. hahah.
cos we were all singing and none were eating..
oh man..
felt so good anyway.
such a pity for her.
then after that we said grace or smth then we ate the cake
it wasnt very nice.. uhh. hahaha. but who cares luh.
half the time, all you taste on cakes is the cream.
haha. then while we were eating, she made a speech.
to thank everyone luh.
4 PAGES LONG!!!
wth right. hahaha.
but she almost teared.
it wasnt like those kinda “i wanna thank my mom, dad, brother, sister ……”
ahha but it was like specifically for everyone and stuff.
it was so touching k. ahhaha. i teared too.
even though i wasnt mentioned.. as in, not exactly. haha.
then she said she’s thankful for her son (the sec 3 one.)
about how he’s grown so much, spiritually, and that she’s very happy.
she look him directly and said it.
if i were him i would just tear luh.
actually i was already. ahhaha.
cos i like to put myself in others shoes.. lol. so yeah.
then she thanked our family for helping them in their times of need.
that part she almost cried too. i think she write until too touching alr, so she changed the words.
and she mentioned about how God helped her through her low times too and all the cool things. and she held her husbands hands and thanked him too.
and she looked him in the eye and said it and stuff.
i think she’s soo brave!!!
i wont be able to do that in front of so many people man. ahhaha.
as in, to my dad or mum or whoever.
argh. i really am jealous now. hahah.
i really wantttttt my family to come to know God.
not just because i think these kinda bday celebrations are cool,
but because they really should.
how much they’re missing out man!
and im disappointed in my dad tonight.
shant explain.
which makes me even more determined to get them with me one day.
people really never know what they’re missing out till they experience it, srsly.
i didnt know either. now i look back at sec 1.. i feel so.. wth.
nothing to say. ahhaah.
then after the “ceremony” sort of. hahah.
one of the cell group ppl came over and talked to my mum.
then i was like in my heart uh.
i know what she was aiming at. hahaha.
i thought that it was kinda good (:
i mean, i’ve been trying and trying..
now at least someone stepped in and helped me get the ball rolling.
i felt so thankful
then after she talked to my mum i went to say thanks to her. ahhaha.
unexplainable joy. i was like very very happy even though i wasnt high.
the source of joy is different i guess.
hahah. the ‘high’ kinda joy is temporial and needs alot of effort and energy to make it happen.
but this is totally different.
i felt so happyyyy DDD
never in my life i felt so happy meaningfully. hahah.
i think this is the nicest bday cake picture ive taken so far. lol.
family photo. hahah.
eh julian, dont you think he looks abit like yc?! 
28 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
HAHA TERRORIST TERRORISTS BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM!
zj was telling me about a mad man running down the slope of sji on 270208 arnd 6+.
damn cool man. hahaha.
the whole sch was like evacuated and stuff.
cos the JI guy’s on the loose. hahah.
and today during training, went pass sji/scgs and there were many many many police officers, army people patrolling.
they were standing there, like every few metres got one.
damn cool man.
i think around the whole school man.
WAH SHIT LA I JUST MISSED THE CH 5 NEWS (and a good laugh) AW SHITTT.
hahahhahah. damnnnn. noooooooooooooo.. i was planning to catch it,
but i overshot by 10mins ))):
OMG I AM SO IRRITATED I MISSED TWO OF THEM THE CNA AND CH5 ONE AND BOTH I MISSED BY ABIT WTHHHHH.
WEHHHHHWEHHHHH AM DAMN ANGRYYYY. HAHAHA NOT REALLY ANGRY BUT YKNOW THAT FEELINGGGG.
(started to bounce and roll and crash around on my bed whiningg ahahah)
WALAOEH.
WHO RECORDED! hahahah.
k laaa.
no moood to blog now still recovering from hyperventilation,
its a weird thing to hyperventilate about this thing, but anyway..
[edit/]
okay ive calmed down. haha.
now im feeling very energy-less and tired.
therefore i shall go sleep.
melvyn just called me smart HHAHA.
melvyn- nerd mode taking a back seat says:
smart
and at the same time……
brandon says:
i teach poor cleo how to spell
so am i smart?
ahwell, i think for now i shall just stick with the ‘smart’ choice.
Goodnight y’all..
27 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
went home straight after school today! (:
IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I DID THAT.
hahahah really eh.
i think the last time i went home straight was.. sec 1/2?
heh and even so, i didnt go STRAIGHT back today.
lol. i went to buy uniform
took mrt with sya to dover, well i wanted to get off at commonwealth so that i could take a bus there faster..
but SYA, was pulling my arm and we were practically balancing on each others’ weight.
and in the end i couldnt get off at commonwealth..
hahha. i got off at doverrrrrrr.
lol sya, did your sis get scolded?
damn sad man she. hahahha.
okayyyyyy people,
we must start planning for march holidays!!!!
likeee, what to do, which day watch what movie etc. HAHA.
(quite cool how we dont see people preparing like this for CTs.)
okay im still practising freeze and i feel like quite a loser.HAHA.
but i’ll just think of those who dont even know what it is, and live in self denial.
hahahah. k ive gotta go sleep its 12.
26 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
COMMON TESTS ARE FINALLY OVER.
after how long..
SO!
today was spent quite lowly.
school ended at 1245 for sec threes (whooopeeeee!)
and so we were all like quite free.. lol.
k basically.
after school went to watch PS I Love You with sam.
(didnt intend for it to be only us, but well..)
siying and yiping came with us for lunch.
siying was supposed to watch with us, but she was watching with her friend,
so couldnt watch. hahah.
Yesssss.
the show is boring man.
hahah. i wonder why so many ppl find it nice.
nice meh. aha.
i think its kinda sick eh.
like, we are intro-ed to the movies with frenching and kissing and an almost undressed woman..
went to ps after that.
i love ps <3333 hahaha.
its like my 3rd home or smth.
everywhere i turn i see ppl i know. hahaha.
okay not so exaggerating.
like walk walk walk abit, see someone i know those kind? ahhhhh..
met the fairfield + sji + acs + pioneer schs there.
they were playing some game that needed to exchange paper clips. lol.
so i gave away my receipt and my ticket stub.
and i got three paper clips, one of which is bent into some weird shape. HAHA.
anddd yeah, met zj aaron jerome tim choo zeus there too.
they were eating lunch at like 4..? not bad.
hahaha so yeah had dunch (as said by joanne) with her and then we walked around abit, and met more people. lol.
its really a cool place laa k. hahaha.
so we happened to see ang they all at carrefour and went to meet them tooo.
then we went to istana park tgt.
OH AND IM TRYING SO HARD TO DO THE DAMN FREEZE THINGY, AND I CANNOT SUCCEED!!!
WHY?!
sherlyn how yall do one?!
hahaha wth man.
i do on bed can collapse also leh. teach me lehhhhh. ahahah.
feel so loserrrr. lol.
yknow when i lean my leg there on my arm, then my arm will have no strength,
and just twist in. hahahha. thus, i collaspe.
and from my head to the floor its quite a distance. lol.
maybe cos my shoulders’ too broad? then so far. hahhaha.
blaahhhhh. nvm i shall practice!
can one k. if sherlyn can, CLEO CAN. HAHAHAH.
(i mean, applies to anyone lol.)
i think the info that art shared was good.
i really needed it.
its true really, how we are taking advantage of what we have now,
is such a waste of time.
time isnt ever-lasting,
and its so scary to see all those facts being pointed out so true.
but no matter whether its true or just predictions.
it gave me the drive, the sense of urgency.
i really need it man. like alot.
who doesnt anyway?
i feel so encouraged when i was watching the video on zach’s blog
showing the millions of ppl getting saved.
they have so much drive, so much faith, even though they are so much less privilleged. we are what, so lucky, so comfortable, yet we do not serve wholeheartedly.
perhaps we need a change of state (not solid liquid gas) to show us what we are really expected to do,
how lucky we are to have all these.
we dont appreciate it, do we?
well its human nature of course, that we always want better things and still do so even after getting them.
we just go about our own lives and forget about the value of everything.
others’ lives, people all around the world.
pity they dont get to hear the good news.
isnt it alr a privillege that we get to?
plus, fulfilling the great commission!
focus, really. i think what ang said today really made a point. haha.
we gotta be focused and not distracted by things going on around us.
we cant afford to lose time anymore.
i experienced what it really meant.
its totally different to be serving wholeheartedly and halfheartedly.
i used to have a huge part of my heart that was stuck onto something else and i couldnt bear to let go.
i tried to balance both God and that, obviously didnt work out.
i ended up feeling stressed and overworked.
but priorities are priorities.
since i have set my heart on building the kingdom,
why should i give my other half of the heart to something that isnt gonna last anyway.
it was difficult though.
the letting go part.
i couldnt bear to release it..
it took me a good 2months plus to really break off from it.
and although i cant say im totally broken off,
but i know that it aint gonna be back anymore (:
and after that i felt so free.. lol ironically.
and the difference in serving was a whole lot of difference.
now i gotta adjust my focal lens and set my heart mind soul and everything right.
it is actually ALOT like my slr lens actually.
it takes a long time to focus onto something manually, because you need to adjust everything delicately and make sure everything is clear and sharp.
then only you take the picture.
and its just like that too.
we need to focus properly to make sure that what we do is good and right and done at the best we can.
the thing is that, we can be distracted very easily.
much more easier than focusing.
as long as someone accidentally comes and knocks your lens and it turns.
there, it is off-focus already.
just as easy as it is gonna happen in reality.
something can just pull you off the track of God,
and there you go, out of line, down the hill.
well, seen it experienced it, it isnt easy to keep focus.
it could be a life at stake (yes i truly regret)
and there are still people who reject the idea of accepting Christ.
it is a privillege, not a burden or an obligation.
if you feel the urge, grab it.
why ponder?
this is choosing your future man.
i really cannot express myself about this.
its not about whether you want or not.
its about the main point of it all.
we dont just invite people for numbers..
the numbers are the lives we are talking about.
numbers are just on the surface stuff.
i wish people knew.
25 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
heyyyyyo!
Amaths ended at 9 today.
went for lunch (or rather, breakfast) at lido there with art nazreen filza falee diyanah aj farah christina
we joined many tables tgt and sat in one whole row. lol.
most of the time we were having cheapthrills luh.
likeeee, hm yknow the big breakfast/hotcakes?
there’ll be this yellow cover right? and on it there are four hole thingys which pops out.
ahhahah then art went to poke all of them, so all of it became concaved.
then she flipped the cover around and poked the thingys again,
and it became concaved on that side.
then she flipped it around and yada yada continued.
hahahah and she was laughing and smiling and made noises like “ooooo!” or smth, anyway it was noises that made it sound so exciting la. haahah.
then filzah saw then she wanted to join in the fun..
so she took christina’s cover, and started doing the same.
hahaha but she was giggling instead luh.
hahah then it was like (*poke* “heheeheehe”)x15..?
then suddenly it seemed so fun and everyone started to try it.
we all looked rather retarded i guess. hahahha.
but anyway, yeah, they left after eating and me and art were left.
so we decided to start work. lol.
great failure cos we started talking and talking and talking. hahaha.
but it was much more enriching k.
studying is soo boring.
then she was telling me stuff (which are true) till i got sooo scared.
i really feel scaredddd lol. i mean its scary what in the first place.
and its not ghost story or smth where you hold the suspense and go BOOOOO at the end.
its real life, true, future to come and yeah.
shucks. hahaha.
but anyway, so we didnt manage to do much.
and i went to her house after that. AHA. like around 12?
yeah her house very quiet man, very conducive for study.
so anyway, we were still talking about that, and she was showing me evidences and stuff. and we were sorta ‘researching’ on the mondex chip thingy.
i never knew so much till she told me.
(art we should have more of these learning sessions HAHA if you dont mind)
and thennnn, yeah, we were talking about it and scaring ourselves till like 330. (3 1/2 !!!) hahahah 3 1/2 is one of the scary things too.
so yeah we decided that we should just start physics and emath. lol.
AND she’s a very good host.. she keeps bringing in fooood and more foood and i wont stop eating..
damn art.
and its like, chocolate, wangwang biscuits, seaweedddd, more chocs, noooooooooooo..
uh huh. so i went home for tuition after a while.
wasted mannnnnnn. i was like sleeping half the time. hahaa.
i really felt sooo tired.
COZ YKNOW WHY.
the previous night i couldnt sleep properly at alllll!
cos apparently my mum changed the pillow to a new one and it is SUPER THICK.
when i rest my head on it my head cant even be put straight..
its like i have a headrest or smth.
then i couldnt sleep the whole night uh.
and my phone started to play crank that at 5am.
and at 6 the gatsby song started. HAHAH.
cos i thought i would be sleeping early (1130).
so i could wake up early (0500) to reach school early (0530 – 0600) to do math.
apparently not so.
i woke at 6, reached school at 640+..
oh well. im off to do physics and emaths!
23 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
‘Hello, Love!’ svc today
it was great!
well done dancers, singers, the team for putting everything tgt.
very entertaining!
hahaha. no, it was seriously good k.
there was dance and video and singing.
the dance was cooool.
it was about this guy and girl then at first they were bf gf,
and after that, they broke up cos dont know why,
hahaha. so the group of their friends like ‘fight’ and ask defend their own friend luh.
(the guy’s group and the girl’s group)
yeah, so it was like, a video,
then they pause and come out and dance.
then after that, video again,
then the fighting part they b-boyed.
hahah damn cool.
they used the song ‘Low – Flo Rida”
DAMN GOOD i tell you. hahahaha.
that song nice what right.
and they used some moves from step up movie also.
the concert part, nearing the end of the movie there. (to those who watched)
yupyup. and the dressing was damn hiphop. hahah. very niceeeee.
shuccccksssss.
i feeeeel so wasted for todayy ):
i guess we can learn smth.
Always have faith, and do it even you dont feel like doing it for God.
right charmaine & clara? hahaha. aw mannnnn. NVM, the next one we shall!!!!!
danggggg. haha.
unfair okay, it ALWAYS happens.
last time also. argh.
not happy not happy not happy not happy not happy):
watch the number of ppl down at the stage makes me feel so sad compared to ourselves..
barely 10.. oh well.
haha. ohyes,
I WANT TO WATCH STEP UP 2 !!!
it’d better be good!
cant wait cant wait
coming out on 14th or 11th march or smth around there. hahah.
am gonna be the FIRST one to catch it. hahahah.
like maybe watch the previews or smth.
lol. okay la no need so desperate.
and the main lead also change alr, prettier one eh.
oh welllll. march march march.
the arena is showing again, march hols and many things.
wheeeee.
k im gonna sleeeeeep.
Goonight!
22 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
okay some pictures
from vday’s. the $7 balloons. (:
eh i think i look tall in the 2nd one. HAHA.
on the day of my bro’s bbq bday thingy, they are jelliessss. DAMN NICE RIGHT!
they have like somethingggg in common. lol.
hahaha. two loners sitting at the stairs. one by one uh.. tskkk.
loner #2.
i look tall again!! hahaha. (top of head & foot – compare with bckgrnd)
“Happy Birthday to youuu, Happy Birthday to youuuuuuu….”
while my bro was making his wish, my uhhh cousin(?) was attempting to touch the cake.
he blowed with a lot of saliva as well. hahah.
searching for melted candle wax. hahah.
my dad and two neighbours and bro.
hahaha pray pray pray.
“Amen!!!”, and then..
attempting to smear cream on his neck.
in the end he moved back and hit her hand. hahahah.
oh well, thats about all for the outdated pictures. haha. (i think)
i am soooo not prepared for Amaths on mon. lol.
im just gonna like get careless mistakes and fail..
sigh, also with the fact that i didnt _____ any maths test so far.
go figure. (no prize for guessing it right)
Goodnighttt, Saturday tmr!!
22 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
okay some pictures
from vday’s. the $7 balloons. (:
eh i think i look tall in the 2nd one. HAHA.
on the day of my bro’s bbq bday thingy, they are jelliessss. DAMN NICE RIGHT!
they have like somethingggg in common. lol.
hahaha. two loners sitting at the stairs. one by one uh.. tskkk.
loner #2.
i look tall again!! hahaha. (top of head & foot – compare with bckgrnd)
“Happy Birthday to youuu, Happy Birthday to youuuuuuu….”
while my bro was making his wish, my uhhh cousin(?) was attempting to touch the cake.
he blowed with a lot of saliva as well. hahah.
searching for melted candle wax. hahah.
my dad and two neighbours and bro.
hahaha pray pray pray.
“Amen!!!”, and then..
attempting to smear cream on his neck.
in the end he moved back and hit her hand. hahahah.
oh well, thats about all for the outdated pictures. haha. (i think)
i am soooo not prepared for Amaths on mon. lol.
im just gonna like get careless mistakes and fail..
sigh, also with the fact that i didnt _____ any maths test so far.
go figure. (no prize for guessing it right)
Goodnighttt, Saturday tmr!!
22 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
HELLLOOOO!!!!!
hahahaha long time no touch computerrr.
*touch touch touch touch*
common tests are ALMOST over, ALMOSTTTTT.
just left E.Maths, A.Maths and physics..
two more days. can one can one
besides, we can last minute study for maths, just practice. hahah.
anywayy, today was stressfulllllllll.
ss -> chem -> geog.
ss is info heavy, so is chem, and so is geog.
but it isnt that bad uh, ss.
cos the topic to study is very narrowed down already.
during recess and self study session i was trying to cram chem like mad.
sit there flip flip flip, dont know what to study also.
hahah but overall chem was good (:
pretty much.. i know i got one question wrong alr.
geog i was writing rubbish, cos i forgot most of my points. haha. but nvm ITSOVERR
okay anyway, chitss!!!
i wanted to go to the airport to send you off..
but i couldnt cos my tuition was postponed to that time.
sighhhh, its sad to see you go ):
you should have left at another time!
like after common tests or before..
so that we can do a proper farewell or you. haha.
but i enjoyed all the times spent with you these two years.
you are supposed to take nice pictures like the postcards shown, dont forget.
hahaha. so that we’ll be jealous that you’re there at least.
we’ll mizz you chitzzz.
your joy will be remembered hahahahha.
all your lame shitz.
love youuuuu!
okay, i have been deprived of going out for soo longgg.
actually not really luh. hahaha.
but i want pictures!!!
nice ones
(must bring my camera out on a journey one day since i missed the valentines date with it)
k, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee SATURDAY TMR WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
i guess its times like these that we learn how to let go.
ive made my promise, and i wont go back on my word.
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